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Jun. 18th, 2009


listening to "So Much Fun - Spooktober" on Blip

love this song. always makes me so happy and want to dance if i didn't actually hate dancing...

May. 28th, 2009



him: like i think my favorite thing
was your eyes
but your smile's pretty awesome

why my eyes?

honestly i dunno, they just make my head spin like looking off a really tall bridge or something

May. 27th, 2009


I'm emo, except with a better soundtrack ;)

So I realize it's been quite awhile! hey!
I just need to gush in a journal about how awesome I am feeling/how awesome a first date I had Sunday night!
here is the blurb about the date:
he got to my house late because he lives in boston, and got lost because he isn't even from the boston area...we decided to go in my car, we had planned a sort of unplanned driving adventure...we went to look for coffee but the cool place i knew was closed already..we drove around barrington briefly, and then decided to go to thayer street near brown u, a crepe place was open so we got tea and crepes, walked around, then i went to wickenden street because i though there was a playground there and there was. we went on the swings, the jungle gym, and then started exploring...we wound up on the india point bridge which is a pedestrian bridge over i195. it was really cool and we watched cars go by, then walked down it and to the water...then walked back, to my car, and tried to figure out what to do next...we decided to go to my house, got beach blankets, and laid in the field listening to music on my computer...and we were making up what shapes and things the stars could be. we were kind of just looking at each other a lot, and then i was on my back and he was too and suddenly he was like, can you lift your head up? and he suavely put his arm around me...and then we were cuddling. and then he started shivering so i asked if he was alright, he was cold, so we went in my porch to continue listening to music, cuddling and kissing, then he wanted to see my beckoning cat collection in my room so we did, we wound up cuddling, kissing more, and watching amelie. then we went to ihop at 6am and had breakfast, then he drove me home and that was it.

On the couch, he was like "you look good, I mean I knew you'd look good, but you really do. I like your teeth, and your eyes, and your hair." then later: "I feel like a thirteen year old" (hahaha he sounded it too, his voice got a little shaky).

We have like two more dates planned for Friday and Sunday, oh man.

I just sent him a song on facebook...plastic stars by freezepop...and he texted me and this is how the conversation went:
him: hey I got your facebook thing, you're pretty incredible
me: You mean that in a good way, right? Hahaha
him: I mean it in the awesomest way possible
me: haha yay!
me: I think I am still blushing

Mar. 19th, 2009



I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome today.
Apparently hardly anyone besides me that I know have heard of this disorder. Reid even went so far as to suggest it's some sort of sexually transmitted disease, ugh. If you don't know what it is, especially if you are a woman, I advise you to look it up! It will make you not seem like an insensitive ass when you encounter someone who has it (as far as I know it's pretty common). Here is the story of my diagnosis in case you are nosie :)
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Dec. 16th, 2008


"kids are dicks"-the sarah silverman program

As Sarah Silverman once said (though she was quoiting her father) "Kid's are DICKS!"
Actually, I'd like to ammend that to "People are DICKS"
I am not sure why I don't get along with most of the people in this world.
I am not sure why it seems like a constant fight.
I'm not sure why I seem like such a bad person to myself and apparently clash with so many people when I know in my heart I am a truly good person. God knows, too. Which may sound weird, but so what!

In less cryptic news, I forgot to take my medication (only one of them...fuck rite aid) and had super de duper withdrawal. Dizzyness, nausceau, chills, and shakes. reallllly bad. I was paralyzed pretty much. It got a little better after a nap.

When I was feeling less dizzy, I followed through on my plans with my old RIC friend (best friend there) that I met orientation day and was friends with until I left. It was three years since we saw each other but it felt like none. She's so great and I am so happy we hit it off that first day. We were giggling at Friendly's the whole time. She's a republican but I can strangely stand her. She was showing me her really awesome tatttoos!
yay :D one good thing about today <3

Otherwise, I am hoping I will get to see the boyfriend tomorrow night. I was supposed to see him today, but it fell through, which was just as well. We almost broke up though due to the lack of seeing each other. However, I later had a nice talk with him and felt better.

We'll see...

Dec. 13th, 2008


SO! It's time to make a first post on my new journal.

As I said in my info, this journal name change is to inspire me to write more. Not necessarily simply what went on in my day---but the thoughts and ideas I have and deeper themes of my life.

I chose a name I like, not much significance to it except it's pretty and can be a second OMG, haha.

I dyed my hair purple recently. Dark purple. And the dye is ruining my life! It is all over my white computer, and everything I touch is stained, as well as my neck and body. :(

I am leaving hair school. I know I need to stick with something, but I think I should stick with a real education, not something like that. I am going to work first and foremost for a while, but also be going back to college and making my way towards a bachelors. I applied to the New England Institute of Art for Fashion Retail Management and...I can't afford it. I dunno, maybe if I go part time for a while after deferring. I am also looking into Simmon's adult learner program since I am an old fart when it comes to being a college student...and it might help with some of my issues. I should also do that psych rehab thing at BU wherever I end up going ...

I also think I have like, major seasonal affect disorder. It's dawned on me that I do this every year. I need to make drastic changes, get my sleep pattern all wack, and eat and eat. I long for the sun and warmth. Which is weird because I don't like the heat at all when it is here.

My five year high school reunion came and went. Oh man, bunch of drunkards. And such boring people overall. No unpredictabilty...no adventures...just more of the same.

I found out my best friend at RIC got married. Congratulated her on facebook. She said she misses me a lot (as I do too) and gave me her number. We have plans monday night yay.

I have a boyfriend but it doesn't feel like I do. It sucks. We never ever see each other. bah.  I want to be single, kind of.

New Years...I don't know what I will be doing but hopefully something interesting for once.